CW 45: Looking Forward
"Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards." ― Søren Kierkegaard
Disclaimer: I realized the phrase "weekly obsession" doesn't quite fit this entry but I can do whatever I want so yeah
It's been an incredibly stressful week. Aside from lots of work for uni and handling private life, the US elections took forever and even though I thought I wouldn't care about the country that thinks it's the greatest on earth but is pretty much just messed up in every way, the elections were still on my mind most of the time.
As Monday started off as a rather productive day and I actually got work done, I thought this week would be a good one. I was just about to take a break and go to the movies one last time, before cinemas closed again due to the L-word, when I decided to just have a night in and hoped I wouldn't regret it later. Turns out, for once, I made the right decision.
Shortly after, terrible news reached me. Well, if you haven't heard yet (and kind of shame on you if you haven't 'cause it's important to know what's going on in the world) there was a terrorist attack in Vienna last Monday. Some uneducated, hate-filled 20-year old decided to shoot around in the heart of the most beautiful city in the world and take innocent people's lives. Instantly I thought how good it was that I didn't go to see that film and stayed home and before I could actually process what was going on, I made sure my friends and family were safe. Slowly I started to understand the situation and finally, started panicking. Lucky enough a very good friend (shoutout to you, I'm pretty sure you're reading this) called and talked to me, while this craziness was taking place and made sure I would put my phone aside for a minute or two, which worked for a bit, but when she went to sleep, my stupid self, turned on the news and kept reading fake news about hostagetakings and explosions (none of which actually happened). It was about 3am when everyone I was talking to had gone to sleep and I finally managed to turn off the news and go to bed.
However, madness continued when on the next day, the police were still searching for another supposed perpetrator. Anyhow, Tuesday was also the day of the US elections, which at first I actually didn't want to keep up with but it just turned out so I was up late night and checked and I guess from there it's just like a car crash - you just can't look away. So as we all know, that took four days and during these four days I had plenty of work to do, but guess what! I couldn't get anything done and I have no clue why (well I have my assumptions). Anyways, you probably don't care about me being super lazy so here's why my "weekly obsession" is "Looking Forward".
In times like these, where I can't find any time to just breath (not because I'm working that much, but because I pretend to be working and that is even more exhausting, 'cause in the end I don't even get things done) I just love looking forward to things I have planned. For now, there are no things I have planned though, which makes all of this very frustrating. I did decide though to catch up on what I lost from my exchange year due to COVID and made out a plan to move to Stockholm again. In case uni is still in distance learning mode next semester it would allow me to study from wherever I want to and for now, I told myself to not care about the COVID situation later (Let's see how long my reckless me can hold on). Also I thought about moving somewhere else to work, like Barcelona and envisioned that for a while this week. So yeah, nothing is set, or fixed but somehow this week, looking forward to things I want to do has been my only saving grace and thus, you're reading about it...
...in the spirit of looking forward, I dare myself (and you), to do something unexpected today!